Once in a while you reach these moments or phases of life when you see the picture clearly and feel comfortable at things being in control. Life looks simple and sorted and you tell yourself to do nothing "too smart" and just play along. I was at such a stage in my professional life very recently(until the 31st of october to be precise). I could see my life over the next 6 months- working as an Asst Director on a project that was to be directed by two most amazing people i had met so far in my life. The production house that i'm working for also is reputed and a dynamic organistaion, all looked well....but...
Oh!! there is always a BUT, isn't there??!
These two amazing individuals both above 50 years of age with a bulk of expertise and experience to add on to their refreshing and acomodative attitude were incapable of a few things...they could not play corporate politics, they could not lick the arses of the bosses, they did not beat around the bush and did not tell you only what you wanted to hear but they told you what really was!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOW CAN SUCH DEMONS BE SPARED??...and they were not.
After having made use of their energies for over 3 months these two gentlemen were asked to leave the project after a day of shoot was over...and thereby i witnessed two individuals having to pay a price for being genuine and sincere people. It was the triumph of those who successfully managed to fool the higher-ups by wearing branded clothes, speaking curvy melodic english and trudging along with lap tops for the conference room meetings!!
The sadest part however was that all this apart i'm still here amongst the same crowd that i despise and those that make me uncomfortable. I did my bit of raising an objection to the above developments and thats when i was pointed out the essentials of profesionalism and competition!!
It is important, i was explained- to take tough decisions to make things right- it is essential to hurt people and feel nothing about it in order to cover for your own mistakes- is what i heard!!
I wanted to leave that very day- my heart told me that..my brain rarely talks to me anyway! But then i was advised to stay a little longer, for certain 'professinal' and 'economic' constraints required me to stay longer. So i stayed, i'm still here, amongst those i look down upon...i still report to work everyday and be polite to those i want to give some piece of my mind as a result presently i'm plainly being self centered and fake---so how am i different?
Hence everytime i bitch about them or condemn their action i am invariably remined of my inaction...and i know this once...i've given in...have'nt I?
